Love each other why put down the intersection of betrayal and time such as love such as _ once eight year

Love each other why put down the intersection of betrayal and time such as love such as _ once eight year

Heroine's file: It is quiet to pacify, 27 years old, civil servant
Leading man's file: He Tian, 29 years old, manage the company by oneself
Record to people: Staff reporter
In conformity with the son
Time: December 20, 2004; January 27, 2005
Place: A cafe of street mouth; He Tian's company
[Cause ] pacifies quietly and loves each other with He Tian for eight years, in the other human eye, man's appearance is impressive, handsome; Woman's bird is in accordance with people, polite and generous, two persons should be an innate pair. Do not know what reason, He Tian has been unwilling to get married all the time. Just know, what He Tian minded is that he has not got one's own the first time after pacifying the quiet diary that leafs through He Tian in once unintentionally.
[Past event ] is pacified quietly: Become attached to due to illness, " pick up " Boyfriend that comes
Precisely, pacify quietly and I keep in touch and stand up closely is on the net.
Probably pacified quietly and phoned me, hoped to exchange it with me attentively in September of 2004. She has emphasized emphatically " Attentively " Three words, I ask one sentence: "We chat on QQ, OK? " I had never expected, she has smiled on the phone: "Why, I am wanting to say so too. " In short, make our distance close quickly.
We have had a chat for three months on the net, but she only asks me some wily and queer questions all the time. After I answered one by one, she either disappearing, or long-time silence. I have never met such persons who have poured out: What are wanted to say, do not dare to say, but keep with me for such a long time.
By December, I ran into her on the net again. This time, her mood is very low, one sheet of words that are typed out are connected with one, seem to be leading anything off. Then, I require that meet with her, let her tell all unhappy things. It is so quiet as to hesitate to pacify, has promised.
In the third space recreation room of the mouth of street, I have seen and pacified quietly. Her appearance is quiet, beautiful her name, but the melancholy on the face can not get rid of. Her brow is locked closely, seems to twist and obtain water. Can see, she has met the great difficult problem.
In fact, over these three months, I have been hesitating, should told you these. Because I have no courage.
Pacify the so quiet as to sigh one breath long, " Sichuan " of the glabella The word is deeper.
Hey, I think the luckiest thing of this lifetime is what it is met.
On National Day of 1696, I have not come back home to celebrate a festival as in the past, but gone to the library to borrow several English edition of novels in advance, plan to spend this long holidays of seven days seeing attentively.
The lively campus seemed very quiet to festivals or holidays at ordinary times, people reduced a lot too. Fortunately, stay behind to take care of things in the school too if there is a classmate with the bedroom, in those days, we two " Interdependent " ,Go to the dining room to have a meal together everyday, fetch boiling water.
In the afternoon of October 5, does not I wonder what reason it is, my stomach trouble broke out suddenly. The pain that then topples the mountains and overturns the seas lets me give out the groan sound of the agony. After the room-mate sees, flurried, is supporting me to go to the hospital at once. However, as soon as I went out of the dormitory building just now, I ached and can't the waist arises continuously. I squat on the ground, hold into a fist and support the stomach, nothing can talk out. The room-mate was extremely worried at that time, because our dormitory left school in the hospital to have journey of one kilometer at least, and is on the occasion of National Day, there are few pedestrians in the school, there is discrepancy of taxi. The room-mate consoles me on one side, let me resist aching; Go to the crossing, hope to have student riding a bicycle to send me to the hospital. However, has waited for several minutes, besides passing by several pedestrians sparsely, have not seen one that ride a bicycle.
The stomach aches more and more, some of me can not prop up, droop the head, send out the low and low groan sound. At this moment, I hear a piece of male voice ask at the top of the head: "Need my help? "
I raise one's head, find a boy in check shirt a face is looking at me concernedly, the more important thing is, he is pushing the bicycle. I plan, speak anything, room-mate make a U-turn see those boy, scream in pleasant surprise, run over at once, ask: "She is ill, can you send her to the hospital? "
Boy that turn around bicycle without the least hesitation, make the back seat, say: " come up quickly! "
With the help of room-mate, I take the bicycle, have come to the hospital. Very enthusiastic boy that, register for me, run the last run, also help me to take medicines. I want to return the money that he paid first to him, but he says with a smile: "Let it be, you just invite me to dinner. " In face of his smiling face, I find, he has a pair of big pitch-dark eyes, overwrite the sunshine and optimistic inside. My heart does not have a cause earthquake: His eyes are very bright!
That boy has left one's own contact address while leaving, this of mine just knows he is called He Tian, it is the students of large four of this school, will face the job assignment on graduation soon. Hereafter, I invited He Tian to dinner, He Tian returned hospitality again, I continued returning hospitality In a word, we often have a meal together, just at the beginning, the room-mate was always accompanying me, later, so long as I invited her to accompany He Tian to have a meal, she said with a smile strangely: " I do not want to be the electric bulb! " Get to the end, only having He Tian and I two people left has a meal. Fortunately it can never be lonely where is humorous, with him on day to have a meal.
In June of 1697, the sad atmosphere fills the air in the campus everywhere, large quantities of graduates will hurry to all parts of the country soon, all campus lovers are sad and sad and intimate, cross the small woods, will meet a pair of lovers letting oneself go, having one's face covered with tears once being not careful. At this moment, He Tian tells me too, he will leave Wuhan soon, will go to an enterprise of Qingdao to work. Expect, be unable to have a meal with humorous He Tian, I am a bit low-spirited.
On June 10, He Tian finds me, says that asks me to eat few a meals left. I feel sentimental at once, no matter what how banter me day, I can not laugh. Later, He Tian had to see me back to the dormitory.
On the way home, I wonder or have no intention intentionally, He Tian and I have moved towards a path simultaneously. The night, extremely quiet all around, flying away the faint green grass flavor in the air, calm and sentimental, just accord with my mental state at that time.
Our two shoulder duck, can fly? "
One day in September of 2004, I went to He Tian's company to play. He Tian happened to go out that day, I played with his computer. Play with, where I find suddenly to lock a file on day. I thought the password was my birthday, failed in at will. I had never expected, password mistake. I have tried our pledging love on day again, remain by mistake. I am strange, our passwords are nothing more than these two, in addition, what kind of password will he use? What kind of file needs locking?
I produced the great interest to this file suddenly. I think, since the password is not what I am familiar with, prove this file is very important, moreover, he is unwilling to let me know the content of this file.
I try to input the telephone numbers of his birthday and family, find and remain by mistake. Finally, where I expect to show filial respect for his mother most on day, hold the attitude of trying, the desert is said on birthday when I has input his mother: "Let it be, it is can't be more unnecessary for us. " Having finished talking about, he has not walked going back either with head. I feel too shamed, stop he, let him far in tears of me only. At that night, he bought back the train tickets of Qingdao.
Naturally, I and Jian Lu, either together, he make me with favourite say good-bye, I hate him.
He Tian: It is difficult to resolve that the heart forms, expect can be beautiful tomorrow
Pacified quiet commission, I found He Tian. He Tian is obviously perfunctory while just beginning to answer to answer my call. I speak more anything while being inconvenient too, but say, let him have time contact me, perhaps it turn on his heart, marry.
One month passed by, He Tian has not still phoned me. Will it be noon January 27, telephone of me suddenly loud, what call day. He asks whether I have time, want to talk to me. Then, we invite and fortunately meet in his office.
Silent to probably tell you what I take notice of most. Perhaps you will say my view is a bit pedantic, but I have not really passed that barrier of oneself. Frankly speaking, I can not put down so far, the reason of silent the first time has accounted for 60%, her betrayal has accounted for 40%.
While seeing for the first time silently, I think her so pure, just as pursue the girl for a long time in the dream. So, in the contacts afterwards, I have been taking good care of her meticulously all the time, do not dare to explain to her. Until graduating, I did not tell her, I liked her.
However, silent such a pure girl has this stain. When she tells me crying, I can not really accept. Although I and silent to make and say good-bye at that time, say good-bye formally after all, she does it in this way, is a kind of betrayal as to me. I do not really dare to imagine us to get married in the future, how is she. So, I only choose to say good-bye.
However, after getting back to Qingdao, I find it is silent to miss oneself all the time, the acting like a child of her, one of her smiling knits the brows, her voice Whom I think she fine all, walk at street hoping, seeing she appear suddenly, restore good relations with me Those period of time, what have no spirit I make, silent on one's body, I put into all emotions, and imagine so beautiful: Wait for my transfer order to Wuhan to come down, and then get back to Wuhan quietly, give her a pleasant surprise. But, what has she given to me
Talking about this, He Tian is reticent.
These years, I think of and silent departure, choose to love her quietly, bless her, far see her spending happy day. However, so long as expect she will lie in others' chest soon, will become others' wife, just as my heart has been cut out one. In other words, with silent to get married, it is good-for-nothing for me to feel; Do not form, feel regrettable again.
I ask: "Besides that time, has she also betrayed you? " He Tian wants not to want to shake the head. I then say: "Pacify quiet to believe you, tell you all too originally. I believe, initial, you can not really accept, otherwise will not choose to say good-bye. But the end, you love her, and chosen to stay with her. Since together, why is to still taking to heart in the past? Why must bear this burden? Everybody hopes to live happily by oneself, and it is happy to cross and have, depend on one's own psychology to a great extent: Bear the happy twinkling of an eye firmly in mind forever, forget the past not fast. If always think of the happy thing alone, his psychology is young and optimistic forever. On the contrary, quite different. So, how is everything going with one, totally depend on how oneself thinks. "
He Tian is hearing silently. After a while, he says: Unless in fact, I still once looking for relevant website,it hope from in inspire, the ones that said are the same as majority that you said above. I am trying not to think of this question either. However, it needs time to adjust the psychology, I only expect to can spend safely by oneself, explain for a silent one.


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